beginning the battle...

40 lbs...that's the goal...to get rid of 40 lbs. i have done this before when i was 20 and finally made the decision to shed the freshman 40 i gained when i went to college. i have done this before. maybe that is why i am dreading it. i know that it isn't easy. i know that it isn't fast. i know that there is no magic pill i can take or spell i can cast...all i have is blood, sweat & tears...and that is how i get it done. can't afford a trainer, cancelled my gym membership when i was pregnant because they shut the one down close to my house, didn' t want to drive 20 minutes to the other one...and i wasn't using it anyway. i will have to do this alone with my collection of work out dvd's and the great outdoors.
i am doing this for me. so i can feel how i used to. i know i may never fully regain my pre-pregnancy bod...things definitly change a bit after having kids...but i have also seen women look even more fabulous after having kids than they did before....so there's always that little ray of sunshine to hold onto. all i know is i have gone from a health fanatic exercising 6-7 days a week, eating all things green and only allowing a "treat" maybe once a week, to the lady that has a bowl of ice cream and calls it lunch and then has another after dinner for desert...there has to be a happy medium and i am on a mission to find it!
sooooo....i am not going to turn this into my weight loss blog...but i will write about it a bit now and then...for me. i have to do this and even though i am doing it alone, i need something to hold me accountable...and for now, this will have to do.
wish me luck!
~a